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and what a better time for them to do so...

first of all, a warning.

this is going to be a sadpost.


ok.. well. life's been goot to me. i can't exactly complain, but... well. we always end up finding something, don't we?..

i got into NIC, an internship people said was awesome and fun and all that! well... it hasn't been all that awesome. mainly it was just me gettng really cranky because i felt like i was doing most of the work there, which isn't true, obviously, as there are 4 art directors besides me. but that happened because some people (especially my senior) kept playing around and delaying their jobs and thus it's a week before christmas and we're still working... HARD (which wasn't supposed to be happening, i swear). so yeah. internship has been stressful and i'm not getting any money out of it for a another semester. ¬¬ i sort of hate it when i think of it that way. =T

i got a wonderful boyfriend (of 2 months) now. x} hugo is perfect. he's been AMAZING to me. so amazing... *.* *sigh* it's breaking my heart the way i just treated him, today.. you see... i had a party to attend at 9. i thought he had to go to school (at around the same time) to deliver his last essay. meanwhile, he declined another party to go to my party with me. he called me at 7:30 to tell me he was all ready and waiting.
but i got home SO tired that i slept through the alarm clock till 10:30pm. that's when HE called me again, asking me if i was still going. i said no, because i had no intention of going and returning late (because i have to work tomorrow too and i was tired enough as it was and he can't sleep late too, because he works as well).

gosh.. i'm devastated. i'm pretty sure i shouldn't have sent him an e-mail apologizing over and over but i was even surer i couldn't talk to him while i was crying and not sound very stupid and overreactive. i feel AWFUL. i'm certain i haven't felt this awful in a long time.. but i was actually wondering -just today- when and what was going to be my First Big Screw-Up. i didn't realize it could be this soon. >_<

besides those really big "tragedies" in my life... i'm poor. i mean. i'm cutting expenses as much as i can, but during christmas time it's just so hard! i wish i could give people what they deserve but i'm not finding the time to look for something great & cheap nor the money to just go to a mall and buy them something they deserve. it kills me! i'm giving a freaking ugly WALLET and a book to my boyfriend and it KILLS me. my friends... i don't even know what to give them yet. D:

also, apparently growing up does NOT give me the chance to defend myself before my family. i had some kind of explosion-row with my aunt and mother during lunch the other day. it's all settled now but even *i* scared myself by responding them (over something to little, even...). so, i'm a little conflicted.. should i defend myself or stay quiet and keep repressing it all because of respect to my family? (no, there's no "defend myself respectfully" option in this case. there's no such thing as a respectful and civil discussion within my family, unfortunately)


so.. this is what's been happening to me. i got a boyfriend and that sort of means i have practically no life now. which is something i hate, but everyone else seems to be living their lives somewhere else so it sort of leaves me no choice. family is coming over and getting together and i still don't know how to deal... (will i ever?) my job sort of sucks and i'm glad i'm going on vacation tomorrow.



p.s: i miss disney TERRIBLY. dude, it's been a YEAR. i haven't gotten over it. :~ a BUNCH of my friends have gone this year and i just keep IMAGINING all the fun they're having, there, and missing it SO MUCH. gosh. i wanna be a Slave D again! ç.ç

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.. I seriously AM in love with Musicovery. *_* Good new music, yooo!! *_*


Gotta get:
The Film - top of the hopes
Silvertide - Ain't coming Home
Teddy geiger - Underage thinking (album)
Morcheeba - The Antidote (album)
Moby - Run on
Michael Jackson - Money
The Corrs - Say

So, this grasshopper walks into a bar and the bartender says "Hey! We have a drink named after you!"
The grasshopper replies,





"Really? You have a drink named Steve?!"



♥

I've got Photoshop again! *dances*

So, in celebration of upcoming vacation and because I need to practice again, I've decided to open a post (in English, yes. lol) and ask if you want anything done. :}

All i ask is for pictures, cause I'm all empty on fandom/stock pictures. =/

ROTFLMAO.


that is all.

sabe quando todos os detalhes do seu dia simples e sutilmente traduzem "você é amada"?

pois é.
escrevo aqui para referência futura: hoje foi um dia desses.

*suspiro*

Two Worlds

Months have passed and you now stand on the brink of returning to a world where you are surrounded by the paradox of everything and yet nothing being the same. In less than one week you will reluctantly give hugs and fighting the tears to say goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to the people that you hugged and fought tears to say goodbye before you left. You will leave your best friends to return to your best friends.

There have been times we have felt so helpless being hours from home, when our friends and family's needed us the most, and there are times when we know we have made the difference. You will go back to the place that you came from, back to the same things you did last semester and the semester before. You will come into town on that same familiar road, and even though it's been months, it will seem like only yesterday. As you walk in to your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you, as you reflect on how your life has changed and the person that you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were important to you months ago, don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things that you hold highest now, no one will completely understand.

How long until you adjust to sleeping alone in a room again? Then you start to realize how much things have changed, and you realize the hardest part is balancing two completely different worlds that you now live in. Trying desperately to hold on to everything, while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind. In a matter of one day travel time, you will leave your world of living next door to your best friends, walking to Wallgreens and Bennigans, going to the Ale House and PI, and guest's insisting that because they have a hand stamp, they have access to everything.

You will leave your Fantasyland to face the real world...

Four days from now, you will leave. Four days from now you will take down pictures, pack up clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. No more guests asking, "Where do I put this ticket?", "What's the point of a hand stamp?", and "Does this train come bacl here?" And for the last time, "The bathroom is outside, to the left, between City Hall and the Firehouse.". You will take your memories and dreams and put them away for now, for your return to this fairy tale world.

In just four days you will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction, to adjust to the change, and still keep each other close and somehow and in some way you will find your place in these two worlds.

Don't cry because it is over. Smile because it happened. :)

ºoº





Como se não bastasse chorar quase toda noite ouvindo Wishes, chorei hoje - como várias outras pessoas - inúmeras vezes, pensando:
"Meu Deus, é a última vez que eu tou no Buzz Cart."
"Como vai ser quando eu chegar em casa e quiser colocar coisas nas paredes?"
"Nada de Walmart ou Walgreens, PI ou parques caríssimos de graça..."
"Nada de super descontos.."
"Nada de guest perguntando onde é o banheiro.."
"Nada de criancinha querendo trocar pin.."
"Nada de fazer gente feliz simplesmente por dar uma sacola maior.."
"Nada de string thing no speedway cart ou airzookas no buzz.." (ai meu coraçãozinho!)
"Nada de Push e a vozinha engraçada dele.."
"Nada de Magical Moments.."



"Eu nunca vou ver essas pessoas tão legais de novo."
(DougSatinderCheriJeffLuisEmilyKellyLisaPhilLeslieStephanieAlexDaysiBrigitteChrisMaceChrisSMikeMarcoMarioLucia e por aí vai.)

É, eu já chorei um bocado.
E sei que isso nem acabou.

Só espero que os próximos dias sejam mais fáceis de lidar.

(e, por outro lado, tou chegando em 27 dias. ^^')

Instead of singing, I bust some moves to some really loud music. LOL Yeah, okay, there's some occasional very off-key singing. XD Very funny question. ;p

*exhales shaky breath*


holy crap.


just.


fucking.



amazing.


♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥


i'll come back when i'm coherent and with photos and videos.

Called in sick today, because HELL YEAH I'M GOING TO THAT CONCERT!! *dances*

Also, there's a pool party going on at the.. well... Pool, here in Vista.
♥ They did it for the CPs and Academics, but didn't do one for us! Unfaaair! (And so, I take advantage of theirs. Mwhahaha! There's free pizza, chips and sodas outside. Plus the pool. Plus a DJ. Mwhaha!)


I'm currently downloading La Môme (la Vie en Rose), here in the Clubroom 13501/Learning Center. This is one of the best things of Vista. Sure, we may have shitty old apartments, a very disgusting(!!!) pond and very few europeans (ha) but we have high speed wireless..! ♥ (just here at the Learning Center, though. At the apartments, it's cable and it's slow. >( )

I've already downloaded Ballet Shoes, December Boys and La Môme (La Vie en Rose), right now. And plan to start downloading Sense and Sensibility (OMG!) in the next 30 minutes or so. *bounces*)

By the way. Did I fall asleep or Ballet Shoes had an incredibly fast and very off ending? I didn't like it. >< The girls, though, were cuties! =}
December Boys... ♥ ♥ I was cuh-rying, by the end. :~ I thought it was funny, though, that it just sort of changed from Misty's POV to Maps' actions and then again to Misty's, at the end. That was cool and.. uh... smooth. ^^
Anyways.

My plans for tonight include:
Going to the pool party just outside. (Mickey and Donald were here at the last one, hee!) Get a camera, somehow.
Getting the 5:47 bus to Downtown Disney.
Eating at Earl of Sandwich (OMG SO GOOD), I think.
Heading of House of Blues at 7:10 or so.
The concert starts at 7:45. I wonder if they really are right on time.. lol In Brazil 99,999% of the concerts start at least 15 minutes late.
Get wild, take pictures. Come home with my pants wet.


LOL
I'm joking about that last one, okay.

So. I'm definitely spending 3 weeks in the US.
Homeless.
My brazilian friend (Floriano) from LA is having troubles at home, apparently, so it's a big fat no for me. *sigh*

Still going to Cali, though!

But I need some opinions and recs from people who live in the area...
( transportation )

( location )

( what to see )

( more general plans )

Yeah, that's it, so far.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!


IT'S HERE.
IN HOUSE OF BLUES.

AAAH
AAAAHHHH
AAAAAHHHHHHHHH
- I almost came when I found out. haha. -

If I hadn't been completely sober (sucks, but oh well), I'd think it was an illusion.


MY DREAMS ARE FINALLY COMING TRUE!!

*off to buy CDs to be -hopefully- autographed*

I never talk about anything Disney here.
Or, well, I just complained a lot. lol

So here's some quick facts for record and overall enjoyment (or not)!

* MICHAEL ROSENBAUM BOUGHT A PICTURE FROM ME!!! LMAO
OMFG! I AM SERIOUS!!! I was at the Buzz Attraction in Tomorrowland and he just walked out of the ride and into the store to buy the picture and OMFG!!!! *flails for the 100th time* MICHAEL ROSENBAUM!! In front of me! *-* Heheeee! The number of his picture was - just for record's sake - 52954, I think. =} on the 29th of dec. xD He's just so hot. *guh*
Ah oh! Xuxa dropped by Space Mountain today. And Harrison Ford was at MK on the 28th. Heh. I love that about being here in Disney. Mwhahhaa.

* Christmas didn't feel like Christmas, by the way. I exchanged gifts, okay. I ate cupcakes okay. In fact, I went to 3 christmas. But it still didn't feel like it. u.u The funny thing was my first Xmas was the international one, with my roommates. We exchanged gifts and stuff. Mine were.. okay, I guess. I got some things from House of Blues (haha wtf. o.O), a gift card to spend on Virgin (yaay!), Justin T's new CD, a blanket, 2 plush elephants (too much) and a bath kit. ^^ Then I went to the Brazilian Xmas, which had good food and good music and a bunch of people from, well, all over brazil. At 2am, pão and I went to the Blue Heron for the Ceará Xmas.... which was already over. u_u But still, we got to meet some friends and talk. It was nice... =}

* New Year's was... I don't know. Different, I guess. It wasn't good. But it wasn't bad either. I spent my day at work, wishing everyone a Happy New Year. Alain made it a bit better. It was fun, hanging out with my coworkers and such. =} The day before had been horrible for me. x_x Still, when it came down to the last 10 minutes, it was just me on a full Main Street U.S.A (the street to Cinderella's castle), watching everyone and their families greeting each other and having fun and paying attention to the countdown.
The fireworks were AMAZING! That I can tell you. It just beats every other fireworks I've seen. Still.. It was tough, not having someone to share it with. And having to hurry back to work, because I had prolonged my break for more than 15 minutes. lolz.

* Tinkerbell is, indeed, a woman. lol Or has been for the last month or so. lol I say this, because last year, people said it was a man. LOOL

* I got myself a laptop! ^^ Did I tell you that? It was so cheap. Yay! lol I also got myself copies of the Twilight Series and A Thousand Splendid Suns and some other books. *bounces*

* OMG BALLET SHOES!! OMG EMMA WATSON!! GOTTA WATCH IT! *has been downloading for a week now. >_<*

* OMFG ROBERT PATTISON IS PLAYING EDWARD OMFG ORGASMS FLAILS ORGASMS AGAIN AND DIES. They will look SO PERFECT TOGETHER! HDLKJAHDKJHALFJ I already have a Twilight desktop! *giggles*
And oh, by-the-way! They took out Midnight Sun, in Stephenie's website!! WTF I WANTED TO READ IT! =~

* I just cannot understand how people come to Vista Way while ENGAGED. lol seriously!!! *crawling up the walls*

* MY ROOMMATES ARE LEAVING! Tomorrow. Actually, in just a few hours. SAD!!!! Some of my most awesome coworkers as well!! =~ So so sooo sad! =~ At least the brazilian girls and Mario and Marco and Alain and Tiago are staying. ♥

* I just lost circa US$130,00 last night. I just hate myself right now. x_x But it could've been worse. x.x It could've been worse. *has to keep saying that*

* It's almost final. I'm going to LA. Am NOT going to NYC, cause I really don't want to right now. I just have to hear from my friend (Fiano) and see if I can stay at his place or whatever. Then I have to get my ticket and start planning. Hopefully, I'll be able to go earlier to Brazil, so I won't have to stay here until 02.17. I actually see no point in that.

Okay. Now that the quick facts are gone. Ask me anything about my job in Disney. :}





And tell me HOW ARE YOU, GUYS!! =}}

And add me on facebook, ok? Livia Vasconcelos =}



Happy belated Christmas and New Year! I hope it rocks for all of you! =DD

I'm sick of waking up and taking too long to get up just because I don't have anything good to eat, or anything good to look forward to.
And why the fuck does that happen!? I'm working for Disney, I know tons of people, I'm usually okay when I'm alone.
But tonight - to-night. - I'm so fed up with everything I just wanna go home. Cause really, I'm not working that much. I can only get one extra shift per week! And that sucks a whole lot. I'll be working only 46 hours next week, when there's people out there working 50, 60 hours!
Doesn't help that my so-called friends don't call me. The cellphone I bought? Not worth it. It's only worth it to text my friends and F and that's it.
Doesn't help that I miss my friends back home, the ones that really love me. That they seem to be having more fun that I do. (Not that I'm really comparing.)
Doesn't help that my English is still very very clumsy, even though *at least* I don't say "I didn't do nothing" or stuff like that.
Doesn't help that I get BORED all the time and that all I can think of to fill that time is to BUY stuff and to come online. How pathetic is that? I stay home watching A Shot at Love (oh fuck i missed the last ep! @_@) or I Love New York 2 (which is simply STUPID and SAD) or something like that just so I won't go to places and spend money. It's ridiculous. I almost went to Wal-Mart even though I don't really need it!



ARGH.
Basically.
I wanna go home.
I'm not having fun.
I'm bored all the time.
I'm sick of eating frozen food and noodles.
I feel bad for spending a lot in restaurants and shit and not cooking.
I'm alone a lot.
I spend a lot, cause I *have* to do something and everywhere I go, there's stores.
I miss my friends back home.
I miss F. So bad.
I miss waking up in my bed. I hate my bed here.
I hate the cold.
Disney is making me pack my bags along with my roommates, who are leaving in 2 weeks. They're making me move again and making me pay 20 bucks for the lovely time I'll spend taking everything ouf of their places - I was just starting to get homey, dammit! - dragging my stuff across Vista and having to meet more people and share my apartment with them. AND OH YEAH. The rent is going to 75 or 85 dollars. G-R-E-A-T.
I don't wanna travel to LA or NYC anymore.
Yeah, I just wanna go home.

neeem acredito no tanto de brasil que eu tive hoje. AIAIAAAAIII! *ouvindo La Bamba, mas a gente releva*

fui no florida mall hoje (acabei encontrando um pessoal lah, pq 6 sabem, neh? brazilian invasion, tanto de cast members como de turistas. XD), e achei COMIDA DE VERDADE!!!!!! Entendam a empolgacao.... eu nao como arroz ha 2 semanas. feijao preto, entao, nem se fala! e hoje eu comi TUDO o que eu pude e nao me arrependo! *-* foi arroz branco, feijao preto, ovo, frango grelhado (ah. parece q a novidade nos restaurantes chineses eh bourbon chicken, ou algo do tipo. O.o looks greasy. u_u), batata frita e... eh. ehuahioae meu pratinho do bomd+

comprei dois ursinhos de pelucia (um macaquinho lindo e uma vaquinha (!!!), soh pq eu tava precisando de algo pra enfeitar minha cama, preu abracar e soh pq tava pseudo baratinho (e eu tava com raiva da falta de laptops. =~). hmmmm... ah. comprei coisinhas de unhas (very cool)pra minha mae. (mae, vc le isso? hahaha)

e conheci encontrei uma menina de fortaleza, lah no florida mall. daaaaaih que ela comprou um laptop, e aqui estou eu. ^^ detalhe que o aleno comprou um laptop super parecido, se nao o mesmo, por 250 dolares a menos. D: tah vendo? questao de mta pesquisa e sorte. =/ ainda nao comprei o meu pq METADE da Best Buy tava Sold Out. *glares*

mas sim. agora eu poito o laptop da Juliana, que, btw, eh over. =~ pq n a conheci antes? HEIUAHEIUEHAIUHAEI brincadeira. xD ela eh suuuper gente fina. adorei demais. ♥
entao eh, estou aqui lendo a historia dos sete anoes contada pelos anoes (hilaria), que o flavio me passou, e ouvindo os CDs que eu fiz. ^^ patricia, vou ouvir o seu pretty soon, amiga. ainda n tive oportunidade (bem, soh essa) de ouvir musica boa. =~ cansei de country e fergie, minha gente. can-sei. T_T (FYI, minha roommate deixa o som ligado a noite toda - assim como as luzes de natal que ela colocou no quarto u_u - em uma estacao que soh toca as mesmas musicas, praticamente. =~ a unica vez que foi legal, foi acordar ao som de pussycat dolls. hahahahaa! XD)

( a few pictures )


Love,

HIIIIIIII EVERYONE!

It's been a week since i`ve been here. holy cooow! The time just FLIES BY!
It's been hectic lately... haha, well, sort of. lol but generally, pretty hectic.

I'm living with 5 americans who are just the CUTEST things. ♥ I've learned that all the English I've invested all these years? Good for nothing. LMAO My spoken English just SUCKS ASS. LOL Hanging out with brazilians 90% of the time doesn't.help.either. LOL

The people here are so gorgeous!! And so friendly!
(and omg today I saw TWO Snow Whites in like 15 minutes. LOL so awesome!)
I'm working at Tomorrowland, by the way. And yes, that in MAGIC FRAKIN KINGDOM!! (*w00ts*) My costume sucks, by the way. I wish I could wear a DRESS!!! Argh. Alas. No dresses to be found in space, apparently, so I'm stuck with baggy pants that go up to my waist. *feels unsexy*


Hmm. That's it so far. I tend to say I miss the people back home. But I actually only miss the girls and F (and even him.. not so much). The truth is.. there's so many things to do and so many people to meet that I don't get in the mood/have the time to miss people back home. (Btw, Trish. Totally cried when I saw that little notebook. You can tell THAT to everyone. lol This you can't: it's opened on YOUR note. ♥ )

BY THE WAY! I'm staying at Vista LayWay!!! Get a pen! :D
The adress is:

Vista Way Apartments
13501 Meadow Creek Drive apt. 1308
Orlando, FL
32821

you wanna name them to Livia Vasconcelos. =D


Well, I guess that's it. I'm almost a zombie here. Argh. Only slept for about 4 hours last night (good reasons, though! haha musictequilaboyzYES!)

♥ ♥ ♥



P.S: MY MOM ROCKS! xD
P.S: I have a cellphone! *bounces* it`s 315 520 1851 (a cingular). and yes, i'm in orlando... with THAT area code. o.O lolz

/o/
finalmente acabando com as malas.
não teria feito nada sem minha mãezinha. (beijomãeteamo! ♥ )

bem. acho que já tá meio óbvio, pra quem sabe da existência desse journal, que eu tou indo pra disney. :} eu vou ser o que eles chamam de cast member. basicamente, serei escrava do rato. haha!

vou trabalhar com vendas, que foi a primeira opção que eu escolhi (agora me arrependo. mas quem sabe no futuro, não. :} ), mas ainda não sei exatamente AONDE vou trabalhar.
também não sei onde vou morar, principalmente porque algumas pessoas do último vôo foram para o Chattam e o Vista. :O Mas a probabilidade é que eu caia no Blue Heron. Né lindo?! *-* Plus, tem amigos. ♥

haha, deveria estar terminando de arrumar minhas coisas (cds a gravar, mp3 a configurar, mochila a aprontar, etc. XD), mas não consigo, sei lá. @_@ preciso estar totalmente vestida pra isso, e só me visto qnd tiver que ir mesmo. *aproveitando as últimas oportunidades de usar pouca roupa*

vou tirar uma foto com a minha blusa de cast member, é LINDA! XD mas uma prévia tá aqui! :D também vou ganhar uma blusa da stb, mas aí não sei se é realmente bonita. ._.'

bem. acho que é isso.
tou levando a câmera da mamãe, pq tenho CERTEZA que de hoje e amanhã, sairão ótimas fotos. ;B

beeeijos
tentarei entrar em contato asap. ^^


** to my flist. lol nothing you don't know already. just an intro. haha!
but as i'll be spending the next 2 months with no posting/commenting guaratees, i totally understand if you to de-friend me... :/ really, it's ok.. ^^

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This is the deal.
I'm too lazy to have many accounts and post in two languages everytime.

So I'll be posting in both languages here. The posts will be shorter (and sometimes in english, and sometimes in portuguese), but hopefully, there'll be pictures. :D

(plus, there's also dictionaries and translators, if you really wanna understand the portuguese. ^^")

**

Esse blog aqui vai servir de espaço pros meus relatos da viagem pra Disney.

Os posts serão públicos por algum tempo, até eu ver que é irrelevante. Daí, volta-se a ser friends-only.

:}

Para os brasileiros que vão me acompanhar e quiserem comentar (por favor? :D), aconselho a comentar como anônimo e colocar o nome no lugar do Assunto (Subject), ou assinando mesmo, no final.

Hmm. Quê mais?

Acho que é isso. ^^'




Hmm. I need a brazilian icon. *steals from amandioka*
Haha.